We can think of church as something that should bring us close to God. But how often do we experience a conflict and church seems to create an obstacle to God? Many of us even grow resentful towards church and flee from it. Young people may depart from the church and faith of their parents. These are typical of a growing faith where God may be calling us to look to Him beyond church.
For me to survive church I need a fiercely independent spirit that is more dependent upon God than people. I realize this is a paradox, that I am created with a need for people and community. To grow healthy my needs should be aligned under God’s authority.
To survive church I need to have healthy boundaries. I cannot let other people’s expectations become my rule of conduct.
To survive church I need a generous spirit towards others as they also struggle with these issues.
To survive church I need to keep focused on my Lord.
My mother’s religion hurts.
You’re greater than my mother.
I see you in her shadow.
She should be in your’s.
Tried to set my shadow free,
tripped up over my feet.
Guess I’m destined to misery,
as far as I can see.
A shadow hangin’ over me,
wets my spirit down.
See you through another’s eyes,
distorts the purest light.
For more on issues of dependency in relationships see the poem “Glow”