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Old hippy; autobiography

I hate and despise authority,

until my car does not submit to its designed purpose to deliver me to my destination

I hate and despise authority,

until my computer does not submit to the command entered.

I hate and despise authority,

until I become a manager at my job.

I hate and despise authority,

until I become a school teacher.

I hate and despise authority,

until I need some cops, to save my ass from some gangsters.

I hate and despise authority,

until I become a father.

I hate and despise authority,

until I become an authority.

I hate and despise all authority!

Until our Creator, the only truly good authority,

reaches out to me.

In 1969 after a Crosby Stills n Nash concert my friends and I were attacked by some gangsters. Guess who saved us; cops. We called cops pigs back then. I had an attitude about authority and caused a lot of trouble. Looking back I think it was mostly anger at my father. Now I see authority as something universal even inherent in nature. It is necessary for society. It is the abuse and perversion of authority that is ugly.

2 quotes on risk and courage

Still the last, sad memory hovers round and sometimes drifts across like floating mist, cutting of sunshine and chilling the remembrance of happier times. There have been joys too great to be described in words and there have been griefs upon which I have not dred to dwell; and with these in mind I say climb if you will but remember that courage and strength are not without prudence and that a momentary negligence may destroy the happiness of a lifetime. Do nothing in haste; look well to each step; and from the beginning think what may be the end.

Edward Whymper

This writing obtained from the ranger station at Jenny Lake, Grand Teton National Park, Wyoming.

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal… lock it up safe in the coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket… it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable… The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell.”

C S Lewis

Truth Bleeds

On the on-academic aspect of truth for us western, platonic, hyper rational ists.


I looked on the mountain for truth

in the cracks, on the peaks.

I looked in schools and books

until my head hurt.

I cried like a poet seeking truth.

A taste, a nibble,

aroma of truth

is all I could find, damn my mind.

Then wisdom spoke

to me, she cried,

she felt, she loved,

she healed, and she gave birth.

She bowed her head and surrendered

her life on the bloody tree

for me.

Sex, culture, morality

Often atheists will rant against the oppressive Christian morals inflicted upon our society. This reveals an ignorance of other cultures historically and currently. Many ancient cultures especially in Asia are very conservative morally and politically. Possibly the ancient cultures have learned through experience what America is playing around with like an adolescent. In Korea about 85% of all people, male and female are virgin when they marry. They learned that sex is a powerful force and is not to be toyed with.

Often humanists and atheists claim, “I don’t need a bible or god to help me be a good person” Well ok then please follow through on this! Please don’t use lack of religion as excuse to rebel against those values that really do preserve society. Looking over history we do in fact see that families really are the backbone of any society. Any evolutionist should see this plainly. And Christians often promote this polarizing effect when they claim to have sole ownership of family values. Many family values are aligned with Christianity but not exclusively. Looking again over history and other cultures we observe that most cultures embrace something similar to the Biblical 10 commandments. Most cultures teach things like; respect your parents, don’t steal, don’t murder, don’t have sex with another person’s spouse. But the Bible does add uniqueness saying, “Don’t make idols or have other gods”. My point is that as a society we may have a long way to grow in our maturity towards sexual purity.

A friend asked once, “Why does the Bible forbid fornication, sex outside of marriage?” I answered that I didn’t know why but accepted God’s authority on the issue. Over the years having time to struggle personally with the issue and when I was reading some psychology books on boundaries I came to some personal conclusions. I realize now that boundaries are a basic issue of healthy relationships and of personal mental health. The first basic boundary is physical, don’t touch another’s body without permission, don’t hit or abuse. That same boundary principle applies to mental and social issues. In sex we move profoundly into another’s physical and mental space. But unless this is rape we do it by mutual consent, right? So is this a violation of boundaries. Yes, I believe so. If people are not aware of or choose to ignore the potential damage, the boundaries are still defiled.  They don’t make condoms for the heart!

Applying boundaries is just the negative aspect of purity. What in the positive sense do we have to look to for fulfillment? We have as an ideal the goal of a lifetime commitment, a covenant, with a friend and lover. Again the ancient cultures show us the beautiful picture of elderly couples caring for each other through their whole lives. We have the positive image of a relationship of safety, safe to expose ourselves to each other because we have created an atmosphere of safety by our commitment to each other.

And finally we have the opportunity to honor our Creator by showing respect for an aspect of life that is given to us as a special gift. Even in the movie “Avatar” by James Cameron there is recognition that mating is a sacred bond before their deity. This is returning to some very ancient roots of our society. Jeremiah the prophet of Israel declares, “Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls”.

Lift my head

“O my God, I am too ashamed and disgraced to lift up my face to you, my God, because our sins are higher than our heads and our guilt has reached to the heavens.” (Ezra 6:9)

“If I am guilty, woe to me. Even if I am innocent, I cannot lift my head, for I am full of shame…” (Job 10:15)

Leviticus 26;13: “I am the Lord your God, … I broke the bars of your yoke and enabled you to walk with heads held high.”

John 17:1; “After Jesus said this, he looked toward heaven and prayed:”

Bowing ones head has always been in most cultures significant as an act of reverence and submission. Even my dog lowers his head when I reach down to pet him. Truly as fallen mankind before our creator we bow not only our heads but also our knees. But when I was reading that Jesus lifted his head when he prayed it struck me as significant that Jesus was breaking all our traditions about praying and I had to ask why? My conclusion is that Jesus is the only one truly worthy to lift his head.

So if this is true that Jesus is worthy to lift his head before God then I have one more question, “Does Jesus leave me with my face to the ground?” Colossians 3:1‑4 says; “Since, you have been raised with Christ … when Christ who is your life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.” When Jesus identifies himself with us we are worthy before God because of Jesus’ righteousness. Therefore “in Christ” we also lift our heads. As Hebrews puts it, “…we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body…let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience…” (10;19‑22).

We sing a song; “Lord you are a shield about me, you’re my glory, you’re the lifter of my head”. I believe that God has always desired to lift man out of shame and guilt and this is fulfilled in Jesus. John says, “For the law was given through Moses; but grace and truth came through Jesus Christ.” (1:17).

It has been a healthy experience for me to lift my head when I pray to remind myself of the acceptance that I have before God in Jesus.

Conformity or liberation?

Do we perceive Christianity as a life of conformity or liberation? Religion, social conformity, trying to be cool, making a good impression can all involve levels of conformity. Americans pride ourselves on being “individuals”. Yet lets be honest here. Look at the amount of conformity necessary to be cool. How many tatoos or piercings do you have? How expensive is that impressive car you drive? Our styles are all about conformity. Its a human dilemna and I don’t think there is any way out.

Religious conformity is one of the more obvious forms. But is there an actual freedom in submission to our Creator? What if Knowing God is not about conformity to social standards but living in harmony with the author of life? What if submission to the ultimate authority gives me freedom from the petty authority of people’s opinions?

There is a proverb in Japan about social conformity; “The nail that sticks up must be hit down”.  Mr. Kanzo Uchimura a n0torious Japanese Christian professor is known for his refusal to submit to pressure to bow to the emporer’s signet. Jesus is the nail that would not stay down even in the grave.

I understand the normal part of being social creatures. That it is natural to be part of a group; that social norms are a natural way of protecting a society, of preserving peace. However if there is a Creator then true peace can be found in living in harmony with the author of life.

Gaze; I was walking home from work all stressed about life. I saw a sunflower in the field just gazing up at the sun. I walked up to that sunflower and said with my biggest authority voice, “What are you doing just standing here gazing at the sun? Can’t you get a job? Can’t you do something important with your life? What’s the matter with you?” You know what; that sunflower just ingnored me and my authority and kept gazing up at the sun.